Dia dhuit missy.
Hope you're doing well (maybe a little better after seeing this hopefully). As you probably noticed, I instantly ran to make this once I saw how important it was to you, and I am deeply sorry about how long it has taken me to make. I thought that the Amsterdam trip and everything else would make up for it, but that's on me (I was very in my own head that week, I'm very sorry). I have speed-ran making this website so I could have as much time to actually write out the letter instead of the code. Also, if there are spelling mistakes (and there will be many), please ignore them as I am kinda just writing things down as they come to my head, and when I do that, I tend to end up rambling. Anyway, away with the excuses, onto the more important matter... you!
Happy 21st (very late) birthday! I know how you feel about it and that you're scared of being 21 and such, but I think that you need not have any fears or worries about it. You already prove to be extremely wise and mature wayyyyy beyond your years, and sure your WHOOP says you have the fitness age of a teenager. So technically all that's changed is that the earth went round the sun another time. I know that I have only known you for a short amount of time in the grand scheme of things (and honestly it seems short as well because every day with you is a blast), but in that short amount of time I have never EVER seen anyone make such a leap in personal growth. It's actually crazy to imagine that at the start of the year you were super depressed, because look at you now! You're absolutely thriving. You have made such an amazing bounce back from everything. I've never been more proud of someone in my life. Lemme let you in on a little secret of mine. When I ask you about your day, 1. I'm just curious as to how you are and what's happened, but also 2. When you talk about your day, I always feel a sense of pride and joy seeing how much you've grown from January. It brings so much happiness to my day just knowing that you're doing better than ever, and when I hear you talk about how good the farm is, or how well your study went, or how nice the people you met are, I can't help but feel comfort that you're thriving.
When we first started "talking" (we were basically together without the label ðŸ˜), I told myself that I had to pace things. That I had to relax and not get too involved emotionally, as that has been my downfall in the past and I don't want to fuck things up with you. However, you made that impossible to stick to. Everything you did and do puts me under a spell. Like you have opened up my eyes to what a relationship can really be like. I fell in love soooooo quickly, it's actually ridiculous. When I first said it at that babba, I kept telling myself it was just a mistake and a slip of the tongue, but I knew that drunk me was onto something (drunk words are sober thoughts and all that). Then at the train when we said goodbye and I nearly blurted out "I Love You", I just knew that I had to give up on this idea of not getting too emotionally attached because I already was. There is something just so amazing and addicting about you that makes it hard to ever stop thinking of you. Every minute I spend with and without you, good or bad, I know that I've made the right decision. I'm not certain of many things in life, but you are one of the rare exceptions to that.
Now for your favourite part... PRAISE. You're such a Good Girl... Don't worry, there is a lot more. You are amazing. I know you hear me say that word a lot and you probably think I'm just using it as a word to just say something and keep the conversation alive sometimes, but I can wholeheartedly say I am not. You are by definition, Amazing. In every sense of the word. Looks-wise, omg you're a goddess. Every time I see you, either online or in the flesh, I can't help but just marvel at what a beautiful woman I am somehow with. I'll even let you have this... You may be out of my league (You didn't hear that from me 😉). Next, your brain. How can I even fit how smart you are into words? It's actually impossible. Every time we talk, you are onto something else amazing. All the internships and being so involved in the lichen world already as a 1st year is amazing. Your idea for the lichen society is outstanding. Never mind how much it's going to benefit you with learning everything about lichen, it's also such a good passion project and I know you're gonna absolutely ace making it. I have zero doubt in your ability to make this into a real club (I'll even order you your "I'm lichen it" top first thing when I have my job, already been looking at a few). All this is to say that you're the most amazing person I know and I could not be prouder to be a part of your life.
I may have to end this here as it's been a while since I've responded to you and I have a feeling you're not very happy with me. Once again, extremely sorry about not making this sooner, but I hope that this little love project can make up for it in some way. Anyway darling, I love you so much and you mean the absolute world to me. I can't wait to see you again as it's been too long, but with that, I hope you cherish every moment in Switzerland and have the time of your life. I love you the most.
- TinTin